Archive for September, 2005

virus DKS 4 (part 1)

Thursday, September 29th, 2005

awas hati2 virus H5N1, avian flu lagi merajalela dimana2.
tapi gwe malah terkena virus lain. virus yg belum ada obatnya sampe detik gwe nge-posting ini.
hmm even belum gawat2 banget sie, tapi tetep bro, udah stadium 4.
dan gebleknya gwe belum berniat nyari obatnya.
virus ini menyerang hati dan otak
terjangkit mulai hampir 1tahun yang lalu
awalnya biasa aja, tapi lama kelamaan jadi meningkat terus
mulai dari puisi, photo, program berita tv, testimonial, password, sampe being a ghost..huahaha
menjalar hampir ke semua segi kehidupan gwe deh..
ga merasa kesakitan sie, justru sangat menikmati…huahahaha
virus ini ga berbahaya asal masih bisa dikontrol. dan alhamdulilah so far masih under control
justru virus ini menimbulkan daya kreatifitas dan imajinasi yang tanpa batas
tak terbatas waktu dan ruang. kapan aja kambuh, langsung bisa tersalurkan lewat banyak hal
efek negatifnya sedikit kok.
DKS 4, atau dellynious kronis stadium 4. :) nama virus ini terinspirasi dari blogs nya jeng kiky atau dari cintapuccino ya ky? hehe
i dont care lah..yang penting ga menular kok
dijamin 100%
obatnya benernya ada, tapi belum mau ngobatin juga, biarin aja dulu

gwe ga mau maksain hati gwe bwat melupakan, biarin aja lah
toh kalo emang udah waktunya, Allah pasti punya jalan bwat gwe. yakin.
if he’s not the one. then there will be the other. just let the time answer. for a while let me enjoy this virus…
(jadi teringat lagunya slank) huahaha

so people, dont worry, this virus especially made for me.

(btw, hari ini bener2 demo gede, macret dimana2, plus berita terakhir, kampus gwe tawuran ma UKI, halah!! ini pada ga tau diri banget sie, orang lagi pada prihatin sampe demo2 segala, eehh ini malah tawuran..punya otak ga sie? maap nie…)

sedikit mengomentari tentang kepanikan orang2 yang ngantri gila2an di spbu…hmmm itu reflek pasti terjadi, walaupun kalo dipikir2 berapa banyak sie tangki motor ato mobil mampu menampung bbm? paling poll ya bwat 2 hari kali ya? belum lagi bbm yang terpakai pas macet ngantri itu..itung2 paling untung ga nyampe 50.000 kan? toh kalo naek ya tetep harus naek kan harganya? tapi sekali lagi…itu tindakan panik yang spontan, daripada kehabisan mendingan ngantri biar panas ga karuan rasanya..hehe.
well, selamat ngantri, semoga apapun keputusan pemerintah, suasana akan bisa membaik, selama mereka konsisten menepati janjinya untuk memberikan jatah kepada warga miskin. amien.
kasihan masyarakat, dah kelamaan dan sebagian udah karatan gara2 nungguin perbaikan nasib realisasi janji2 pemerintah. konsisten ya pak sby & jk.
ga kebayang gimana bakal ramenya itu supermarket2 diserbu masyarakat yang biasanya heboh nyetok bwat bulan puasa..hehe include gwe nie..belum belanja bulanan, haduhh, kebiasaan menunda yang sangat amat kelewat tidak baik. rasain deh lin!!

have a nice crowded thursday everybody

love
linda

bbm-antri-mogok-ribut-rusuh?

Thursday, September 29th, 2005

semoga ngga sampe kata2 yang terakhir itu deh
males banget. udah ga jaman pula.

rabu, jadwal kuliah gwe cuma 1, jam 1/2 8. walhasil rencana berjalan mulus, janjian ma anak2. ivan and the gank. dengan wanti2 yang keras, bahwa gwe musti nyampe kampus jam 1/2 8 teng, no telat!! karena gwe suka mata kuliahnya, dosennya juga ga rese’. pengantar periklanan. yup gwe suka menganalisis iklan2 dan maknanya, ide2 kreatifnya orang2 iklan juga bikin gwe penasaran… berharap dan berdoa semoga gwe bisa ‘kecemplung’ ke dunia yang dinamis itu. bergerak teruss, karena benernya gwe kurang suka bekerja behind the desk, bukan apa2, gwe type orang yang doyan ‘bercengkrama’ alias petakilan (istilah jawa) or ga bisa diem gitu…hehe :)
seperti yang sudah disepakati bersama, ketemu di american grill sabang. agak macet as usual di patung pak tani, hmmm ternyata harga bbm yang terus naik ga pengaruh banyak tuh ke kalangan tertentu, nafsu beli mobil tetep tinggi, terbukti dengan produksi 500 mobil perhari di tempat gwe, itu pun baru untuk 1 type, belum type lainnya, belum juga dari merek2 lain yang walaaahhh ga kebayang deh kaya apa padetnya jakarta tahun depan… satu sisi itu menguntungkan bwat perusahaan manufaktur atau otomotif kaya perusahaan tempat gwe kerja gini, but bwat sisi lain….its terrible hun’!! well that’s what we’ve called “LIFE”

ternyata gwe adalah yang terakhir dateng, hahaha tumben bener pada bisa ontime ;). langsung order dan mulai menjarah appetizer dengan semangat 45 (van, kudunya bwat orang2 dengan perut karet kaya elo2 tuh emang ke buffet aja ya, jadi ga tengsin ma orang2..huahaha). dan serasa mau meledaklah perut gwe dengan appetizer dan steak. pliss de, gwe dah ga kuat bwat yang namanya desert lagi. ehh tapi tetep aja, namanya makan ma gerombolan si berat, hajaaarrr!!!
untungnya, alhamdulilah, sekali lagi alhamdulilah, gwe bukan type orang yang takut gemuk..hehe
bacut jam 7 lewat, pikir masih keburu banget lah nyampe kampus. but yang ada terjegal di menteng karena antrian orang2 di spbu menteng setelah kafe pisa.!!! stuck ga bergerak, bablas lah nyampe kampus jam 8 lewat.

hari ini gwe udah sempet parno karena berita pemogokan yang mau besar2an, duh…
semoga ga sampe ada ribut2 deh, karena bosen banget gitu denger tiap kali ada demo ujung2nya ribut, kayanya ga sah aja gitu kalo ga ada bakar2 ban ato ribut ma aparat.
ga cape apa? ato kebanyakan tenaga gitu? bbm tuh emang harus naik kali…karena di negara2 lain juga udah naik, dan pemerintah ga mungkin terus2an mensubsidi, apalagi yang disubsidi adalah orang2 yang notabene mampu. benernya gwe juga rada kecewa sama mahasiswa2 yang demo pake rusuh, ga intelek banget gitu. cause sebagai orang2 sekolahan, mereka tahu kenapa bbm itu harus naik, dan kalo emang mau demo ga setuju bbm naik, ya harus ngasih solusi juga dong, ga maen asal teriak, yang ujung2nya dikhawatirkan ditunggangi sama pihak2 yang ga bertanggung jawab dan cuma mau ngambil alih kekuasaan dengan cara anarkis. ga sehat!!

dan pagi ini, morning talk ma ndut yang baru balik dari jogja bwat ngurusin investasinya (kuciiinngg…mana oleh2nya?) pop-up tiba2 tanya
‘lin lo nonton top 9 news metro ga semalem?’ padahal jelas2 gwe bilang nyampe rumah aja jam 1/2 10.
ternyata…hikes, ada lelaki idaman-pencuri hati ku. liputan live..malem2?
haduuuhhh!!! sumpah nyesel banget gwe ga nonton!! padahal biasanya gwe ga pernah kelewatan acara itu, rangkuman berita aktual setiap hari. hikes. babe…
dan tumben bener dia mau nongol depan kamera gitu, lama lagi ya ndut? adduuuhh lagi!!! nyesel gwe…
berlebihan ga sie? bodo deh. EGP!!

well babe, selamat bertugas ya, sukses dengan semua ambisi dan cita2 ya.
doa2 ini ga pernah terputus.

(jeng ky, ini masuk kategori apa ya? dellynious kronis stadium IV kali ya..hahahha)

to be continued on dellynious kronis stadium IV part 1.

love you babe
as always
linda

teng-sin

Wednesday, September 28th, 2005

hueheheh
ini kenangan seumur hidup ga bakal gwe lupain
swear to God deh.

senin kemarin, akhirnya gwe ke admin kampus gwe juga setelah tertunda (atau menunda?) seminggu. ngeberesin jadwal kuliah yang rada berantakan ga sesuai KRS gwe :( actually gwe udah males banget ngurus, bukan apa2..kejadian kaya gini bukan yang pertama kali dan gwe juga bukan the only one yang kena hal begini. rasanya kok ya ngeselin banget gitu.
ngga sengaja sie, tapi kenapa musti terjadi lebih dari sekali? udah kelewatan kan namanya…

ngurus di lt.2, sementara kuliah gwe udah mulai di lt.7. diterima dengan baik (untungnya) sama cowo yang lumayan maniss..hehe (teteup dalam berbagai kondisi, mata kudu jeli dongs) terus di oper lagi ke cewe dan setelah sedikit debat, gwe ga bisa kuliah di kelas yang gwe mau, karena udah penuh…huh!!
pas gwe ngambil hasil print out KJK di cowo itu, dimulailah pembicaraan.

‘linda ya? emang kenapa kok minta ganti?’
‘iya, itu mata kuliah yang ga saya ambil tercantum disitu, justru yang saya ambil malah ngga ada..gimana sie mas, ini udah kejadian yang ketiga kali ni..masa terus2an begini, repot dong. mana saya ga tau dosen penggantinya’ gwe serasa menemukan tong sampah sesaat bwat menumpahkan kekesalan gwe atas sistem administrasi yang ngaco itu
‘loh memang kenapa sama dosen penggantinya? kan sama aja mata kuliahnya..harinya juga tetep kan?’
‘ya saya belum tahu dosennya yang mana, kaya gimana, kalo yang lama kan saya dah kenal, udah tau. nanti kalo dosennya ribet kan males, saya udah 3x pertemuan ga masuk nie soalnya, itu kan UPM mas.. males banget deh diganti2 gini..’
cowo itu senyam-senyum aja..duh lumayan menghibur dan meredam emosi gwe sie..hehe
tapi tetep aja gwe kesel..!!
‘ya udah, gpp, dosen penggantinya baik kok’
‘ya mudah2an aja, thanks ya’
gwe ambil print out KJK gwe dan bacut dari ruangan itu. ngantri lift lama ga ketulungan, daripada gwe telat masuk kelas, akhirnya gwe putuskan naik tangga aja, tapi maaaakk adyuuuhh kapookkss deh gwe ngga lagi2 naik tangga dari lt.2 ke lt.7 . hasilnya keringetan ga jelas,..gerahh!!

sedikit bisa napas, gwe tanya ke temen gwe, yang mana sie dosen pengganti itu.
huaaa dari ciri2 yang disebutin temen gwe kok bikin gwe deg2an ya, bukan apa2, ternyata dosen pengganti itu adalah cowo manis yang sempet gwe curhatin di ruang admin lt.2 tadi…
halaaaahh!! lin..lin..please deh, ngga banget gitu loh!!

tengsin abis
but anyway…anggep aja its a nice accident..huahaha
mau dong sering2 kalo accident nya model begitu.. :P
ehh kemaren sore pula, udah mau bacut kuli, jeng kiky baru tele ngajak nonton premiere film (film apa ky, gwe lupa) di PH..dyuuhh kok dadakan seh? nyesel juga ga bisa ikutan, hikes..tp gpp, toh sabtu besok kita ketemuan kan di gathering pf? cant hardly wait to see you :)

love
linda

congratulation!!

Monday, September 26th, 2005

guten morgen.
apa khabar? hmm..semalem gwe ga bisa tidur sampe jam 2. bete banget. gara2 isu ada kuntilanak beredar di wilayah tempat tinggal gwe..such a…!!! entah cuma sugesti atau emang bener, yang jelas gwe ga nyaman dikamar gwe sendiri semalam, dan yang ada, ngungsi ke kamar kakak gwe..hikes!!

jumat kemarin ngikut kunjungan kantor ke bandung, jadi EO dadakan, cape tapi seru. hitung2 challenge dan belajar gimana meng-organized bapak2 bos..untung ada yang bantuin juga. 70% on the spot. ngambil keputusan musti gimana, hmm seru juga ternyata. pengen lagi :) berangkat jam 1/2 6 dari rumah dan nyampe jakarta lagi jam 9 malem..untungnya bos2 itu ga bawel, terima beres dan tenang.

then sabtu-nya seperti yang udah gwe planning, go to irsal’s wedding ceremony @ gd.pusdiklat kejaksaan agung ragunan..weleh gwe baru tahu kalo ternyata irsal tuh ga ada keturunan jawa-nya, tapi batak tak tak..eheheh, ketipu deh gwe selama ini, soalnya logat jawanya kentel banget ketimbang gwe yang keturunan jawa. bareng sama ndut yang huahahaha, sengaja bawa kamera andalannya, bwat mengabadikan prosesi pernikahan salah satu temen deket kita itu.
ehh tetep dong OGI, ogah rugi, pose sana-pose sini, jeprat-jepret..hihi ga kalah sibuk ma fotografer pengantennya. gwe jadi objek lagi.
dan seperti biasa, hal pertama yang menarik perhatian kita berdua tiap kali datang ke pernikahan, adalah photo2 pre wedding-nya. mengamati teknik pengambilan gambarnya, lokasi, ekpresi si pengantin sampe akhirnya komentar2 sok tahu ga penting gitu..huahahah kompak bener deh kita, ya ga ndut?!

irsal tetep irsal, even dengan pakaian kebesaran adat batak, senyam-senyum polosnya hampir ga pernah hilang dari mukanya yang di make-up itu. matanya plirak-plirik ga jelas gitu kadang..hahaha.
sal..sal..congrat ya bro’. kita doain biar elo dan dini jadi keluarga sakinah-mawaddah-warahmah selalu ya. amien. sorry ga bisa terus liat upacara adat nya, so cape pakita nie..

akhirnya obrolan berlanjut pada konsep upacara yang kita (gwe dan ndut) mau..hmm…indah banget di kepala, insyaallah bisa terwujud. amien. (rite hun?)

then last nite my friend “S” called me suddenly. dengan suara sedikit terbata2 dan gwe ga bisa ngenalin, karena caller id nya ga keluar di hape gwe.
again, its about the man that break her heart. his parents come to clear the problem. but i know it hurts for her. be patient my friend.
‘Its another chapter for you to get thru. learn to forgive and forget. its over when its over, and dont worry, everything will be just fine”

love
linda

life’s too short

Thursday, September 22nd, 2005


I’ve got the feeling you’ve got the feeling

Oh love, don’t go away
I wish you’d stay
Can I change your mind
I’m the king of dreaming in a wishful way
When I’m wide awake
But there comes a time

And I see that (and I see that)
What I’m needing (what I’m needing)
Is a feeling (is a feeling)
To believe in (to believe in)

Maybe it’s true
And I’m just a fool
Who’s making us blue
When life’s too short

I’ve got the feeling, you’ve got the feeling
I’ve got the feeling, you’ve got the feeling

Oh love is kind of tempting fate
It’s an unknown state
In a place I can’t find
And now I know I’ve kind of lost my way
But I keep the faith
With an open mind

And I see that (and I see that)
What I’m needing (what I’m needing)
Is a feeling (is a feeling)
To believe in (to believe in)

Maybe it’s true
And I’m just a fool
Who’s making us blue
When life’s too short

life’s too short by lightning seeds.

assalammualaikum…
alhamdulilah, thanks God, my father’s back to normal today, health like before :) yesterday, last nite until this morning standby to accompany him. go home early in the lunch time, go to the hospital, at nite go to campus, go home, back to hospital again..hmm so sleepy
and the effect i was late to work, but its ok lah..ive already got an excuse from my bos.
i can smile again :) thanks for the pray, thanks to accompany me also, thanks for the support, dear.
i do really appreciate it. i love you too even not as much as you love me, yet (so sorry for being honest)
gemplonk, ibenk, ajie, and all of my friends, thanks ya for the pray,
’cause we never know from which one the pray will be bless, and i do believe that God will always listen to our pray’

then today ive got another new songs, well actually its all an old songs but so hard to find it.
prazt gave me again, thanks bro!! thumbs up for your big try to search and download the songs.
one of the songs is from lightning seeds, named ‘life’s too short’
its such a great songs, its been so long to find it, hueheheh

well life’s too short, so use it for the things make us happy, people happy
more appreciate to all and love my ‘pap

wish you the best health always, we’ll take care of you
i promise

ur lovely daughter
linda

i love u ‘dad

Tuesday, September 20th, 2005

i dont know what do i feel rite now
sad, confuse, just cant concentrate for my job and anything
i just thinking about my father…
he’s sick and hospitalization last nite.
i never saw him so weak like that
lying on the bad, i almost cant recognize that he’s my father
my strong father, my taft father,
however..he’s so old now
i never stop hope and pray to God
he will be just fine :) get better soon, and health. amin ya robbal alamin.
i love you dad, we love you.

I LOVE YOU DADDY

DADDY, YOU KNOW HOW MUCH
I LOVE YOU
WANT YOU, FOREVER
TO STAY BY MY SIDE
DADDY, OH DADDY
SOMETIMES I WANT TO PLEASE YOU
BUT I’LL NEVER STOP TRYING
TO BE YOUR NUMBER ONE

YOU UNDERSTAND ME
YOU TEACH ME HOW TO PLAY
AND YOU PLAY THE GAMES
I LOVE TO PLAY
I HAVE NO FEAR
WHEN YOU ARE NEAR
YOU GUIDE ME THRO
THE DARKEST NIGHT

I LOVE YOU DADDY
YOU ARE MY HERO
AND YOU’RE
ALWAYS IN MY DREAMS
I LOVE YOU DADDY
OH DADDY
YOU ARE MY SUPERSTAR

YOU UNDERSTAND ME
YOU SHOW ME HOW TO PLAY
WHEN I GROW UP
I’LL STILL LOOK UP TO YOU
SO HAVE NO FEAR
I’M ALWAYS HERE
I WILL BE MY DADDIES GIRL

YOU’RE ONE IN A MILLION
AND A MILLION IN ONE
FOREVER I WANT TO
BE BY YOUR SIDE
YOU’RE ONE IN A MILLION
SHOW ME THE WAY
GUIDE ME THROUGH MY LIFE

I LOVE YOU DADDY
YOU ARE MY HERO
AND YOU’RE
ALWAYS IN MY DREAMS
I LOVE YOU DADDY
OH DADDY
YOU ARE MY SUPERSTAR

sincerely love from son’s and daughter’s

linda

wonderful..whenever wherever whatever..hold you down

Monday, September 19th, 2005

Did I tell you how much I miss
Your sweet kiss?
Did I tell you I didn’t cry?
Well I lied
I lie lie lied
Over real over
When I nearly hit the face I loved
So tired of packaging the anger
Always pushing you away

Did I tell you you’re wonderful?
I miss you yes I do
Did I tell you that I was wrong?
I was wrong
Cos you’re wonderful yeah

Did I tell you how much I miss
Your smile?
Did I tell you I was okay?
Well no way
No way way way

You’re wonderful yeah yeah

Now now now each and every day
I realize the price I have to pay
You you’re wonderful
And now for your information
I’m walking around like an arm decoration

You you’re wonderful
So high I can’t get over it
So deep I can’t get under it
You
You’re wonderful yeah

Did I tell you you’re wonderful?
I miss you yes I do
Did I tell you that I was wrong?
I was wrong
For so long long long

Lead me on babe if you must
Take my heart and my love
Take of me all that you want
And if there’s a thing that you need
I’d give you breath that I breathe
‘N if ever you yearn for the love in me
Whenever Wherever Whatever baby
Wish I knew if I could
Be the one that you would
love forever and a day baby
And if there’s a thing that you need
For you ‘n your blood I would bleed
‘N if ever you yearn for the love in me
Whenever Wherever Whatever baby
And if there’s a thing that you need
I’d give you the breath that I breathe
‘N if ever you yearn for the love in me
Whenever Wherever Whatever baby
Whenever Wherever Whatever

You don’t know how much you mean to me
Whenever you down
You know that you can lean on me
No matter the situation
Babe, I’m gon’ hold you down

baru dapet lagu2 itu dari prazt..gubraakk setelah sekian lama nyari, ada juga akhirnya yang punya MP3 nya :) nuthin special actually, cuma kemarin akhirnya gwe ke kampus, dan agak nyebelin karena schedule kuliah gwe berantakan..ga sama dengan yang gwe plan, mau komplain, admin udah keburu tutup, bete!!
tapi ya sud, senangnya ketemu anak2 lagi even kita mencar2, ga sekelas lagi kaya dulu…hikes.. :( but there’s sumthin makes me wonder. anak2 kok udah pada mau nikah aja gitu? hihihi
fanny, dilamar 2 minggu lagi, ria tahun depan nikah, erlin juga (eh malam minggu kemaren gwe ketemu erlin ma seorang laki2…) ternyata usut punya usut, itu gebetan barunya, udah mau serius langsung nie? huahaha congrat deh ya gals…happy for all of you. kalo emang dah cocok, ya maju aja (apa sie gwe?)
terus neng fia..kapan dongs? jeng tita?
dan kejadian klasik terulang, ketemu jodoh malah ditempat yang ga jauh, setelah berkelana ke sana-sini..ketemunya ternyata yang deket2 juga..hahah. that’s life hun!!
unpredictable, but that’s what makes life beautiful, rite?
so, tenang aja kalo belum ketemu..hueheh who knows jadinya malah sama tetangga or temen main waktu masih pake kaos singlet dan cd doang gitu? huahaha :D
to my friend ‘S’.
dont worry lah, no need to be panic, no need to hurry also. just enjoy your life. make a friends everywhere..it helps.
it takes time to heal the pain, and thats what makes you more beautiful, more mature, wiser.
no need to desperate, and show people bout your sadness, be taugh girl..
life is too short to pass with cry and regret.

btw, gwe lagi suka banget dengan wangi buah2an, dan sabtu kemaren gwe dapet body-mist spa watermelon yang sueger banget..serasa jadi permen, tinggal lengkapin scrub and body-bath tub nya
buat daily use, jadi ga terlalu heavy smell nya. dan lebih irit juga gitu biayanya ketimbang burberrys bwat senin-sabtu..huhh sayang…

ok d, have a nice day everybody
love always
linda

plateau

Friday, September 16th, 2005

suddenly miss you so much
desperately missing you
officially missing you so deep
but what makes me so?
i always miss you everyday, but yesterday..it was so truly, madly, deeply
what’s going on
are you ok, babe?
then the half of it change into worry.
hope and pray that you’ll be just fine
cause the last time i felt it, then sumthin bad happened with him
he’s sick and almost collapse while still doing his job to report the news. work abundantly
hmm..baby, i was so sorry for not being there for you
it hurts me so bad to know that when you are sick and i cant do anything to help you heal it.
i hate to know that i act nuthin to make you feel better.
but however…its done anyway.
and now, i feel the same way just like before.
i do really hope and pray
that you are ok
just stay fine
nuthin bad happen with you
may Allah always take care of you.
i love you. as always
you know i do
and God knows
it will never end to think, miss and love all the things about you
cause you are the LOVE it self

take care babe
(hmm i wish i culd say all those sweet words about how to take care your body, being health by eat fruit, drink enough water, sleep well, do sport..bla..bla..bla..yada..yada)
get bored of it hun? hehe……. :)
when the train never come anymore
take the love ive had inside
just like unshining star
but i still put the smile on my face

when my babe’s leave me
i realized that he’s gone
culdnt reach, culdnt catch, culdnt touch
but i still enjoy the life

when your train’s back
bring my love in sink
offering the pain between laugh
but i still put the smile on my face
and paint the love in my heart

Bnw3

love
linda

be your self

Thursday, September 15th, 2005

then how to make people happy?
its a simple question with a complicated answer sometimes.

but what make them happy?
is it make us happy too?

gwe punya temen yang hobinya suicide. self destruction adalah mottonya. penyebabnya cukup rumit dan private banget. ada beberapa kejadian lucu yang gwe ga bisa lupa sampe sekarang.
nie anak hobinya keluar malem dan ngelakuin hal aneh2 yang bikin orang marah, sedih sekaligus lucu pengen ketawa ngakak.

pernah suatu waktu dia mabok dan menghilang entah kemana, dan seperti biasa, nyokapnya pasti nelpon salah satu diantara gwe ma temen2 gwe yang udah kaya ‘babysitter’nya :) nyari kesana-sini sampe tengah malem dan you know what? kita menemukan tuh anak lagi meluk tiang listrik deket komplek rumah temen gwe (yang juga ikutan nyariin). botol kan??!!
dan yang paling nyebelin adalah waktu dia berantem sama adiknya then mabok again!! terus ngilang.
lagi2 tugas kita adalah mencari. sampe jam 1/2 2 belum ketemu juga padahal udah keliling2 setengah wilayah jakarta termasuk parkit. dengan gontai dan harap2 cemas, balik lagi ke parkit…
masyaallah..ternyata tuh anak udah mabok abiss dan yang paling gila adalah dia nyariin mobilnya dimana. dengan kunci mobil ditangan kanan, botol minuman ditangan kiri. silly!!
masalahnya adalah, dia keluar rumah itu ga pake mobil, tapi pake taksi, dasar mabok, dia sibuk nyariin mobilnya diparkir dimana…??X@#$%^&*! duhh mau marrrrahh tapi ngeliat tampangnya, ga tega aja.
sampe permukaan bulan jadi mulus juga ga bakalan ketemu tuh mobil!!

hmm…karena tingkat sensitifitasnya yang gila2an, gwe dan temen2 gwe ga ada yang berani nyinggung apalagi sampe nyakitin hatinya. setengah mati kita usaha untuk selalu bikin dia senang. bikin dia senyum, segala kemauan dan kata2nya sebisa mungkin kita ‘iya’ kan. bukan apa2, sekali dia tersinggung atau ngambek..bisa berabe urusannya. dan kita ga mau ambil resiko dia masuk rumah sakit lagi gara2 usaha bunuh diri dengan beset2 tangannya sendiri sampe urat nadinya kebal sama silet tuh.
gwe inget banget kamarnya full gravity dari anak2, semua temen2nya, ga ada bagian yang kosong.
gwe pernah nginep dirumahnya, dan walhasil ga tidur semalem suntuk dengerin ceritanya walopun itu2 lagi :)
tapi ya itulah, teman. we just try to make her happy, make her smile and take care of her
but what happen next? she’s almost never change.
dia akan tetap dengan sensitive-nya. tetap dengan perasa-nya. tetap dengan lemah-nya
sekuat apapun usaha kita untuk membuatnya senang. membuat ia merasa diterima.
dan kadang gwe ngerasa ngga semestinya begitu. karena sama aja memanjakan dan justru akan meningkatkan tingkat ketidak-benarannya. membenarkan tindakan merusak dirinya sendiri itu.

alhamdulilah sekarang dia udah lebih baik. berkat usahanya sendiri tentunya.
nah kalo untuk ngadapin temen seperti itu, worthed2 aja. namanya jg teman. ngga ada ikatan yang ‘mengikat’ dan tanpa tujuan tertentu.
tapi kalo untuk menghadapi orang2 seperti itu berbentuk ’someone special’.
perlu rasanya pikir dua tiga kali untuk melakukan usaha ‘membuat dia merasa senang terus’
sekali lagi. seperti yang udah pernah gwe tulis di blogs gwe beberapa waktu lalu

‘we cant always make people happy, satisfied them, like an angel, cause we’re not an angel anyway’

to face a person with an unique personality, need a big try, patient and sincere.
belajar dari menghadapi temen gwe itu, kita emang harus memperlakukan mereka lebih hati2 dari orang biasa lainnya, tapi bukan berarti segalanya jadi beda dan kita harus ngorbanin diri sendiri. apalagi kalo mau ngerintis ke satu arah hubungan spesial.
membuat dia nyaman tapi kitanya sendiri ga nyaman, bwat apa?
membuat dia merasa senang tapi kita sendiri ribet, ngapain juga?
kalo akhirnya kita nggerutu dibelakangnya, apa bukan nambah dosa tuh namanya?
kalo ngga enak, ya udah…namanya juga hidup.
boleh memperjuangkan keinginan, tapi diatas apa dan untuk apa?
berbeda sudut pandang, wajar, tapi menyatukannya, ga selalu bisa.
jadi yang wajar2 aja.
membuat kecewa mereka, itu salah, tapi minta maaf, tindakan benar.
ngga perlu menghamba2, memohon, merana dana, terhina dina..
ga perlu banget…Tuhan aja ngga segitunya kok sama umat-Nya.

memanjakan mereka dengan menuruti segala keinginannya, bukan jalan keluar. justru bisa jadi perangkap semakin terperosok aneh ga jelas.
so sekali lagi bertindak wajar aja, ga perlu berlebihan. segala yang berlebihan itu ga bagus.
kalo udah berusaha sebaik mungkin menjaga perasaannya dan berbuat baik, tapi masih aneh juga. well..yang salah bukan kitanya kok.
jangan mimpi muluk2 untuk bisa merubah seseorang, ga kudu. ga musti. ga harus. ga wajib. atau bisa jadi ga boleh ??

jadi kesimpulannya? ya do your best, but if its getting hard and hurt. let it go away.
there are so many things you need to think and doing.

love your self
by be your self.

linda

as time goes by

Monday, September 12th, 2005

what?
sound’s like japanese comic?
haha, but that’s not what im gonna talk about.

its about have you ever realized, in d’middle of crowded life everyday. that everything run so fast. day by day, change to week, then month, become a year. everything’s change and just couple things stay the same. people come and go.

last weekend. went to gemplonk’s brother’s wedding. gemplonk is nickname for one of my bestfriends, novi. another one is ibenk or hendra. finally we can met again after such a long planning that never happen. i felt touching by staring to them. my bestfriends. nowadays is become a very hard to meet each other. to attend an event or just hang out together enjoy the day or maybe just sit together do nuthin. we do really enjoy every little moment and we’ve had so many beautiful moments.

the things that never change, friendship. it will stay in the same place and never runaway.
such a bless to have bestfriend to share the life.
people that we know since we are nuthin
people that we know since we know nuthin
people that love us and accept us just the way we are

suddenly the memory flash on my head.
just when we still college and hang out to celebrate gemplonk’s b’day. in ramadhan
just the three of us. three musketeers, whatever….
we promise to buy the present on the spot. but then the unforgetable things happen.
she asked for a dress that so expensive. what??!! give me a break. i hate her at that time.
well in fact i have no job yet, still college. low budget.
she begging and the worst is she’s start to cry..oh my God!!. i swear that i hate her at that time
not make a sense.
as the only one man, ibenk try to disengage us before we fight…haha. we didnt realized that so many people looking at to us, and couple of them staring at to us weirdo. damn!!
’shut up please..your voice is so loud. are you crazy?!’
but she didnt stop crying until i agree to buy it for her. ughh i hate you to ibenk to help her in persue.
instead of it, we ask to have a dinner in a great place..haha gotcha. it settl.

gemplonk, girly, womanly, beautiful, godly, love family, hardworker, smart but also the real shopaholic, love to spend a long time in bathroom..ugghh!!! i always complaint bout this one but she never change.
ibenk, family man, patient, always smile even in the hardest time, oftenly mistime..i want to kill him for make me waiting so long everytime he promise to pick me up or just come to my house. i dont know what makes it getting worse..is it because your body getting big? fatty? haha just kidding. no hard feeling ya.
more than that. they are the best buddy, best pal’s, best garbage place for all of my story..hehe
i cant imagine, how it would be to live without them? it will be a nightmare. :( we have a conflict sometimes, causes by many things, just a simple thing like forget to call until the complicated thing like misunderstanding that ever happen with me and ibenk just when we get misoriented about what is friendship and we just being so silly by..heheh let it secret!!
after that we have separated for 6months. and its so hurt, torturing!!
and gemplonk organized to bringing us together in one event. even i try to run before..hehe im angry in the first time, but i realized that she has a good intention. and that’s the best for us, friendship! no more no less.

guys, you know i love you so much with every breath that i take.
my second family. my best brother and sister. my best partner. my best criticus. my best advisor. everything.

just when you realized that you are getting old day by day. when people come and go. there’s a people who never leave us alone. people that always surrounding us with love and trust.
to have friends when you are happy when you are sad. when you get the succes or when you are failed. when you face something new, when you get in to a new part of your life.
find soulmate, getting married, raise the children, being a parents, hmm…isnt it good to have a friend that always there?

still a friend of mine
by incognito

You know as true as trees are tall
And autumn leaves do fall
Oh, it sometimes rains in paradise
And even the warmest heart can turn to ice

I know it happened to us all
Every kind of people fall
And after all the tears are gone
Do we have the heart to carry on

Here and now, still somehow
Still a friend of mine, oh you’re still a friend of mine
Still a friend of mine, you’re still a friend of mine
Still a friend of mine, oh you’re still a friend of mine

To think of all the times I hurt you
And never thought it through
Oh, I treated you so badly baby
Could such a cruel heart ever be free

I know it happens to us all
Every kind of people fall
Oh, and after all is said and done
Do we have the heart to carry on

I know as long as I’ve got you
And we do the things we do
The next time baby
That our love breaks down
I’ll do the best that I can
To turn it around

Time and time and time again
I’m gonna be right here for you baby
Seasons come and seasons go
Gonna be right here for you

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its very important to maintain friendship. and when you realized the time, you will smile cause you’ve had so many gorgeous moment with them. its priceless, its worthed.

love your friends
linda