Feminism

Sumtimes we dont need any reason to do sumthin
sumtimes we dont need to explain anything
sumtimes we dont need to be understood
sumtimes we dont want to talk bout what we feel
and sumtimes we dont need to arguing anything…

cos sumtimes what we need is to be alone for a while and think about ourself
yeah we are selfish….
Well that’s what we are
that’s you
and that’s me
that’s all

linda

Jakarta, feb 22th, 08
at 5:30 pm
casablanca street…traffic jam, worst, stuck!
Turn on the radio..hmm an accident of truck at kuningan, the traffic getting worse until setiabudi.

we change the destination in to mega kuningan, its rainy..and the radio played the song of …uhm..we dont know what is the title and who’s the artist.
here’s the refference (hmm i forgot the whole)
‘as long as i got u, as long as u got me, as long as weve got u and i…’
heee…he love this song, so do i, and we sing it together
turn left and we enter the oakwood, not far from bellagio (how come? I never get there before).

its nice place to hangout, or just to have a chat in the afternoon with friends.. And we have a simple dinner at chopstick. He was so pale, got a cold actually..hmm..

thank you very much to pick me up and accompany me to take a moment outside, to enjoy the air and the cloudy sky with you…more than just enough to make me feel so much better, see? You’re the best cure for me
he like my hugo boss, and the smell is fulfill the whole cabin on his car..hmm… I love to breathe the air with you, no matter what…

thank you to heal me, in the middle of ur cold.
get well soon ya
linda

There must be a reason
why do people meet each other
why does sumthin happen
and why do sumone can be the biggest influence to others?

but it doesnt always like that
sumtimes the things happen with no reason
and sumtimes, you dont have to find the reason why?
Sumtimes, what you need is enjoy it, however, life once..you cant rewind the moment. What you can do is just remember it on your mind. Is it good or not..just keep it for yourself, but if you want to..just share it to sumone that you can trust and share the lesson behind.

i have found sumone that i do admire, so much
i have met sumone that i do really care of, truly
i have felt the great moment that i’ll always remember all the time

this sumone is the most important person in my life
this sumone have a very special room in my heart
this sumone has make me as i am now
this sumone teach me to become a tough woman
this sumone makes me feel like a real woman
this sumone is the person that i love most, even sumtimes i hate
but this sumone has never leave me alone in every worse time in my life…
This person has always make me smile and feel comfort
this person has never bored to listen to my story
this person has naver complain bout the way i express my self
most of all
this person is ALWAYS BE THERE FOR ME

all i want to say, is
you are a very wonderful person ive ever met

sorry if i never say it to you
but im sure you know…in the deepest heart of yours

YOU ARE WONDERFUL
and im so blessed to have sumone like you
linda

Jangan dengar kata mereka
sungguh tak ada benarnya
gelisah mungkin kau rasakan
hapus air mata mu
takut tuk kehilangan
dengar aku jelaskan
jangan kau jauh dariku
hanya karena dia
ku jatuh tanpa dirimu
engkau tahu
kau terindah pasti

jelas untuk diriku
kau yang terindah untukku
mengapa harus kau ragukan
percayamu padaku
sungguh ku takkan rela
bila cinta terbagi
jangan kau jauh dariku
hanya karena dia
ku jatuh tanpa dirimu
engkau tahu, kau terindah pasti

percayalah
jangan ragu
aku tahu
kehilanganmu
kesalahan terbesar yang takkan kulakukan

‘yang pasti’
by: glenn fredly
taken from album Happy Sunday

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friday,feb22th08
its 03.39am
icantsleepsoiwrite
passmidnite,rainyoutsideandimfreezing

withloveasalways,
linda

Here i am
take a break for a while from what do sum people called ‘L I F E’

yup, hari ini gwe mulai dgn beredar ke spa. Mengistirahatkan fisik yg udah gwe paksa bekerja smp lewat limitnya. 120menit yg ngebantu gwe rileks, dan kepala enteng krn akhirnya jadi juga gwe ptg rambut…yeahh!! Finally!

pulangnya, gwe mampir ke kaleyo dan minimarket buat beli cemilan yg dah menipis di kamar..hehe. Meski akhirnya wilayah rumah gwe kena giliran pemadaman listrik (thx God dah gwe antisipasi sblmnya, hp n ipod full of charge ;))..berhubung cuaca bersahabat, gwe tetep bs istirahat dgn nyaman…

smpe tiba waktunya mnm obat…ugh!! Maaf ya Tuhan, bukan bermaksud mengeluh….tapi gwe paling benci minum obat!! Ya gwe termasuk orang yg parno sm obat, selalu aja gwe kesulitan nelen itu pil2 yg katanya bs nyembuhin sakit..parahnya gwe musti minum 5macem obat, dan ini ukurannya seujung jari kelingking gwe (well…biar jari gwe termasuk jari pete, tapi tetetp buat gwe ini dah luar biasa gede) susaaahhh nelennya, dan gwe butuh 2 gelas air..hmmppfff…”#x!(;@+-*

mau minta puyer..huehh sami mawon, paitnya lebih kerasa…ihh gwe emang cengeng banget d kl dah sakit gini, eh bukan sakit, cuma lg ga sehat!

dokter minta gwe dirawat, no way hose! Gwe ga mau jadi orang sakit beneran, gwe ga mau keliatan pucet di depan temen2 gwe dan akhirnya ditengokin dgn pandangan kasian…gwe ga mau dikasihani..ihh gila ya, gede banget kan gengsi gwe?! Ampun deh! Ya gimana dong? Emang gwe ga suka aja keliatan lemah.

cuma satu orang yg boleh dan pernah ngeliat gwe di titik2 terlemah…he’s the one, the only one, the one and only…until now…

he’s the one that i can rely on, the person that i trust to share every part of my life, thru the most private time of my life…the best and the worst part of my whole life…till death do us a part. I need you.

i can and i will be better if i meet him, even for a moment, to see the smile, to feel his hand over my face..and to feel the warmest hug ever. You’re the one, still…cos no one can take your place dear…

hikes…kok gwe jd melankolis ga jelas gini sie?! Ya gpp…meski batal di jenguk hr ini…we still have tomorrow and the next day and the day after…i am here, waiting for your presence, you’re the best cure.

almost 6, on my lovely bedroom, listen to glenn’s song, accompany with camomile and choco fudge… And think about….ahhh its me anyway

linda

Its my cloudy morning….
I enjoy this morning on my lovely bedroom…i cant go to the office as usual, doctor said that i must take a break and get sum rest..hehe
ok, it means that i have a lot of time to get sum sleep now. But i cant sleep! Get used to do sumthin or at least … Ahh…

hmm..i think im gonna go to spa, yeah..i deserve for special treatment after postponed since couple weeks ago, actually i need it than just have to pssttt…dont tell it to my boss, they will kill me..heheh!!

after spa..hmm..window shopping? Arrgghh!! Linda, please d..U NEED SUM REST NOW! Forget mall and any other place that will push you to buy sumthin that u even never use! (yeah…i need to add sum cash to my account after pay many bills this month)

have a nice day for my self
and you do too
linda

hehehehe…after such a long day but feel so short karena seharian gwe ga keluar kantor. bayangin seharian!! rekor gwe!! berkutat ma artikel dan planning event. akhirnya gwe bisa ketawa lagi setelah nonton cj7, film geberan stephen cow

gwe baru mendaratkan kaki gwe di bumi lagi..cieehh..’paan sie?!

ya tadi pulang kantor, nuthin to do..nonton bareng salah satu temen kantor yang hmm…11-12 lah kalo dah ketawa ma gwe, but ini laki2 bo’. yup..sukamto a.k.a adi a.k.a bocil

emang kadang lebih enak dadakan, dah terbukti berkali2, kalo di planning mateng2 dari pagi and rame2..ada aja halangannya. terdorong rasa penasaran sama cerita atasan gwe di kantor bahwa nie film kocak abis! well, let see..kaya apa sie yang dia bisa bilang lucu? is it gonna make me laugh and shake my all over body? hueheh…

dan seduduknya di kursi 21, gwe ma adi langsung cekikikan (please be notice that the movie havent start yet, at all!!).yeehh,..kita cekikikan waktu nyadar kalo yang nonton mostly adalah warga khas kelapa gading, alias tionghoa (please…ga maksud bwat rasis). but that’s the fact.

‘di, kita ga salah tempat kan ya bo’?’

‘huehehe…napa lin?’

‘ya lo liat aja sekeliling loe, depan belakang, kanan-kiri, yang matanya belo’ cuma kita berdua di..heheh’

adi cuma cekikikan, tenyom! ya suw lah…kita deal untuk menikmati film itu, apa adanya, dengan sedikit harap cemas, bahwa apa yang diceritain atasan gwe bener adanya, tuw film lucu! so ga percuma dah beli tiket biar notabene nomat, teteup, bisa buat nambahin duit bensin or parkir :p (secara nyaris bangkrut dari bengkel!)

and here we goes…

the movie was so silly. gila!! ga nyangka gwe bisa ngakak mpe batuk2 ga karuan, sakit perut sampe rahang kaku. konyol banget, secara gwe dah curig ada stephen cow (eh bener kan itu nama movie star nya chinese yang famous konyol itu?). cerita nya sie benernya simpel, tentang anak-bapak yang miskin dan hidup dengan penuh keprihatinan tapi tetep mempertahankan nilai2 budi pekerti yang baik..hmm.. jempol banget kalo masih ada beneran.

ditengah2 kehidupan mirisnya itu, si bapak masih bersikeras nyekolahin anaknya di sekolah paling bergengsi di kotanya. walhasil begaul ma anak2 orang kaya bikin tuw anak kepengen mainan yang mahal juga, sampe akhirnya bapaknya nemuin benda peninggalan UFO (ini yang khas ga make sense nya dari film cina).

wahh..kalo gwe ceritain disini, kesian ntar yang blum nonton tapi dah keburu baca blogs gwe..mending nonton ndiri aja d.

polah tuw anak sumpah konyol abis, masih diselingin kungfu2 plesetan ga jelas…nie film sukses bikin semua penonton ngakak. gwe puas karena ga harus nahan ketawa lagi, yaahh…secara semuanya juga ngakak and gwe nonton ma orang gokil juga, so what?! jaim? rugi aja…itu larangan biar ga berisik di bioskop, lewattt..!!!

tapi gilanya nie film, again…abis gwe ngebahak2 ga karuan, adegan waktu bapaknya tuw anak meninggal karena kecelakaan kerja di bangunan..bikin gwe luluh lantak, yup!! gwe nangis…nangisnya bukan yang setetes dua tetes, tapi banjir aja dulu…hmm..gwe paling ga tega ngeliat anak kecil nangis, palagi muka pemeran anaknya melas banget..dan ekspresinya dapet banget pas dia di kasih tahu bahwa bokapnya meninggal, padahal dia baru mau ngasih liat nilai hasil test nya yang bagus.. ohh… sialannya si adi malah ngetawain gwe.

heeehh!!! mang napah?! gwe kan manusia juga..tapi iya sie, gwe juga ga nyangka gwe bisa nangis deres gitu, sampe penonton yang jaraknya 2 kursi dari gwe ngeliatin..hikes!! i dont care.

tapi abis itu…wakakak…ketawa aja lagi.

wah loe kalo mau ketawa, lagi bete, lagi suntuk, butuh ketawa…recommended d nonton nie film.. secara gwe sukses dibikin ketawa-nangis-ketawa lagi. damn!!

baliknya, masih sempet2nya gwe cekikikan ma adi. ya iyalah…inget ekspresi tuw anak, sumpah dodol abis!

dah di..pulang di…pulang…

eh loe juga lin, pulang sana, tidur, jangan ngikik mlulu! sisain bwat besok.

ok pal?!

thanks ya bro’…at least satu lagi temen yang bisa diajak gokil!

besok kita nonton apa lagi di?

linda

mmm..benernya dah dateng dari tgl 14 kemaren, tapi gwe sendiri baru bener2 ‘ngeh’ akhir minggu kemaren. apaan sie?

hehehe…rada amazed juga, kok bisa2nya nie anak (one of my friends) punya daya kreativitas tinggi dan…dalam rangka apa ya? ultah gwe? masih sebulan lebih lagi aja dulu,

congrats bwat nilai semester ini? hmm..ini lebih awal datengnya kok,

congrats atas selesainya ‘persoalan berbelit’ yang sebenarnya ngasih rejeki yang lumayan gede bwat gwe? ahhh buat apa?

ya suw lah, akhirnya gwe selesaikan rasa penasaran gwe dengan ngebuka itu ‘gift’ yg dibungkus rapi warna pink (gwe banget!) plus surat yang bentuknya kaya sayembara jaman2 brama kumbara dulu..hehe. tapi teteup, daun lontarnya warna putih..kok bisa ya?

and here it is

‘…to dearest pinky freak!

dan Tuhan nyiptain manusia dalam berbagai bentuk, Tuhan juga nyiptain manusia dalam berbagai sifat dan karakter, Tuhan selalu nyiptain satu bentuk manusia dengan satu bentuk sifat, Tuhan ga pernah kehabisan ide untuk buat itu semua.

dan ketika akhirnya Tuhan nyiptain manusia untuk lahir ke dunia pada bulan ..(sensor).. tanggal..(sensor)..tahun ..(sensor)..jam..(sensor).. yang akhirnya secara ga sengaja ketemu gwe pada bulan yang sama tapi dalam 19 tahun kemudian.

ciri2 mahluk yang akhirnya sempet bikin gwe nangis dan ketawa ini adalah :

fisik : hidung mirip alibaba, gigi lumayan rapi, jidat rada dalem (karena gwe ga pernah liat dia tanpa penutup kepala), mata besar mirip mas koki, bibirnya mengikuti kontour gigi, pipi tembem abis (sumpah de most chubby cheek ive ever seen), tangannya kecil banget, jari2 panjang, kuku ga kalah panjang, badan kecil, kaki panjang and agak abnormal dibanding mahluk2 sejenis yang lainnya

sifat : gila, sinting, moody, keras kepala-kepala batu-batu apung! soalnya suka ga jelas mau ngapain, out of the box kalo urusannya dah musti ngerjain orang, pendek akal kalo ketemu angka and rumus2 statistik, jagonya banting2 perasaan orang, pioneer kalo musti ngeles, bosenan, hebat banget kalo musti bikin nickname bwat orang, urat malunya bisa putus dan nyambung lagi sesuai permintaan, mulutnya banyak jadi cerewet bawel berisik ga ketulungan, a very great listener (two thumbs up!), penceramah yang baik tapi bukan pemberi contoh yang ok. problem solver yang ga pernah minta bayaran kecuali coklat ato eskrim, hotline service bwat sejuta umat kalo lagi kepentok masalah (exclude financial problems)

ingredients : 10% malu rasa vanilla. 0.1% sedih rasa mocca, 40% humor gila rasa coklat, 30% kasih sayang rasa stroberi, 10% buta rumus rasa duren, 9.9% pelupa rasa blueberry.

gwe agak bingung, kenapa Tuhan bisa bikin manusia sebegini anehnya? tapi lama kelamaan gwe ngerti, semata-mata karena Tuhan itu adil. Ngga ada manusia yang sempurna, dan sesekali Tuhan nyiptain manusia-manusia aneh sebagai pengimbang untuk manusia-manusia normal supaya dunia jadi bervariasi dan hidup ga ngebosenin.

gwe jadi punya ‘bantalan’ buat saat2 suck dalam hidup gwe, gwe jadi punya ‘tempat sampah’ waktu gwe lagi sedih and no aim, gwe jadi punya ‘pelawak pribadi’ yang ga pernah kehabisan polah waktu gwe lagi butuh ketawa ato cuma senyum sebentar, gwe jadi punya ’suster pribadi’ pas gwe lagi sakit, gwe jadi punya ‘tukang ketik pribadi’ kalo lg ga sempet ngerjain tugas kuliah, gwe jadi punya ‘pembantu hebat’ pas gwe lagi butuh bantuan buat pindahan kost, gwe jadi punya ‘penasehat pribadi’ waktu gwe lagi kebingungan hidup gwe mau dibawa kemana, but most of all .. gwe jadi punya ’sahabat’ untuk berbagi segala hal dalam hidup gwe.

waktu terbaik gwe pernah gwe lewatin bareng manusia ini, waktu jatuh terparah gwe juga pernah gwe bagi ke manusia ini, waktu sulit gwe nyaris ga pernah luput dari manusia ini ada disamping gwe…secara langsung atau cuma lewat telepon.

akhirnya gwe bersyukur karena Tuhan udah nyiptain mahluk yang satu itu, ditengah semua keanehan ternyata masih banyak keindahan yang bisa gwe gali..dan mudah2an ga akan pernah abis.

loe emang brengsek, loe emang biang kerok dari semua kekacauan, loe emang norak, loe emang sakit jiwa…tapi itu yang bikin elo beda.

itu yang gwe pengen tetep ada, semua sakit jiwa elo, semua keanehan elo. cuma elo yang punya.

ini yang bisa gwe kasih ke elo, cuma sebagian kecil rasa terima kasih gwe atas semua kekonyolan yang pernah loe buat dan hal2 bego lainnya yang cuma elo yang bisa bikin…makasie bwat ngewarnain hidup gwe.

you’re the damn best one!’

B 317 NY

07.12

hikes!!

speechless for a moment..then gwe buka bungkusan di kasur gwe, ya ampun…ben…ben…ben… ga nyangka gwe, bener2 ga nyangka. orang kaya elo yang…ughh!! kok bisa sie ben? where d’hell you’ve got an idea? its too much! but i love it. yes i do…

secara gwe ga ngerayain apa2..dan ga mengharapkan apa2..karena ga ada yang bisa gwe harepin juga..jomblowers gini..

how come? ahh ben…gwe cuma bisa bilang thanks a lot. i use the stuff’s now. gwe ga tau loe dapet ini semua darimana but i do really like it. but the ‘love letter’ dah lebih dari cukup kok. secara elo yang bikin gitu..eh bener elo kan? dan bener bwat gwe kan? ga salah alamat kan? hehehe

Thanks

Linda

its been so unusual for me to accept the things that i dont even ever expect to become a reality,

i always suggest to my self, that i cant and i dont need to be thinking of sumthin that i dont expect to be happen. never!!

hooho..but dumb me, sumtimes i just cant make it happen. yeah..suggest to my self.

again…its about friendship.

yeah friends means everything for me. friends give me a lot than just a shoulder to cry on, friends give me more than just a jokes to laugh or story to cry or maybe just to sit and do nuthin’

and i dont wanna lose any friends. even sumtimes i feel bad about one of them, but trust me, it wont be long. its for a while cos i am the person who depend with friends. heheh im honest!!

hihihi..one of friends ask me about the possibility to have a friendship with different gender.

is that possible?

well…as far as i know and based on my experience to have a bestfriend since middle high school, its possible. yeahhh..its not that easy, but if you do care about what will you spend with them..its such a nice things to do. to have a very bestfriend like ibenk (heeyyy!! damn you…where the hell you’ve been?) its a gift. and im thankful for it.

i love you, yes i do..why not? you are such a nice person, sincere, a lil bit boyish..heheh, helpful, smart, a lil bit stupborn (uh ehmmm..a lot sumtimes) a kind of a person that i love to get to hangout, the hard willingness to try to get a better things, you’re good. but i hate you, so much just when you be the silent one after..after what? sumtimes i cant get what makes you so silent suddenly..uh you make me want to throw sumthin to your big head or just kick you out..so selfish!! but then…ahhh its you anyway, nuthins wrong with that. let it be..i dont care, well sorry, i mean i do really care, i know you never mean to be so mean..hehe!!

hmmm…let see, what can i say about you as a newcomer in my colourfull life..

you’re a pig!! yes i want to call you with that name since you call me ‘camel’…see?!! you start the battle!! hehehe..

i feel so sorry for being so stupid to find the address or just to read the maps..hahah!! dont blame me please, just read the book, woman cant read maps..its a fact, it was not only me :p. but fyi, i always try hard to remember any address. again, brain capacity

i always remember the first morning i drove the car to the office, hueheh…suddenly i call you just to find a help for the broken tire…hueheh. thanks God, youre still at home and gladly help me to repair it (hey..youre gladly to help me rite?). and since the day..i also gladly to interrupt you for any problems of my car..yeah!! that’s what friends are for

but most of all, you give a different colour in my life. a different dimension and i learn many things from you, cos you’ve had couples of things as i do. stupborn, moody, unpredictable..huh its like im looking to the mirror. i learn how does it feels to be the people around me and how to handle my self.. that’s why i want to be your friend (still).

dumb me to ask sumthin stupid and precisely unnecessary things to ask at all…hueheheh, im afraid to start to be the annoying one for you, tell me if i did it yah.

i just want to stay the same, getting better is good, but change to be poor…is a big NO NO! heheh..

thank you for every little time you share with me and for every stupid things you did to me

cheers,

linda

It splash me up!!
I love to have many friends..i love to see and feel so many characters, its colouring my life.
Friends fresh me up, just everytime i feel so sick bout sumthin or…many things?
God give me sum friends to share my life with, and im thankful for it.

friends mean everything.
It doesnt matter if sumtimes hate and collide came, it will be disappear.

oh dear…
I must be thankful cos friends teach me many things, to know and to listen any other problems.. Makes me realized that my life is so beautiful, my problems was too easy than any others, and i cant be the weakest one, face it!!

office politics? Hey…it happens everywhere, get up!!
Love problems? Hmm…youre the single one, just enjoy it
like and dislike? Well..fyi, you cant make everyone loves you, so get over it!
Financial problems? Knock..knock..u still can buy a pair of stilletto this month, what more u culd ask for?
Traffic? Hoho…get used to, or forget jakarta!

i wuld never be angry for any longer time with my friends, if i did it, then i must be the stupid one in the earth..heheh

uhhmmm…love you all guys!

linda